I suppose I should start from where I left off. It’s been over a year since my last post. Since the last post, I have continued on in the same anxiety daze as I have been for a long time, with mental health decreasing steadily. I was put in a horrible situation in October last year which resulted in me shutting out completely, and becoming a hermit. As a naturally social person this was quite difficult, however, it was the best decision I could make at the time. I made the right steps to deal with the aftermath of the situation, but the hermit status remained. The idea of recreating a social circle was more intimidating than it had been previously.
I had made a Twitch account to watch some people that a work colleague suggested to me. After a couple of months of watching, I figured that streaming games would be a good way to slowly introduce me back into social life gently. I mean, I was sitting in my room and playing games anyway, so why not stream them and potentially make friends, right? So I started streaming. With the help of a work colleague and her friends on Twitch, I started meeting people (online) and making friends. Through these friends, I found my way to the NZ Twitch community, where I met some of the best people I will ever meet. I went to a meet up of North Island Twitch streamers and got to meet quite a few people that I had chatted to online. After the meetup, there was a couple that I met that I kept closely in touch with, and came down to stay with for a long weekend to get out of Auckland for a little bit. I had been ‘planning’ to leave Auckland and move to Christchurch and had never actually done anything about it except tell people of the ‘plan’. When I came down for the long weekend, my friends asked how my moving plans were coming along. It was at that point that I realised that I wasn’t actually that committed to the move to Christchurch. I told them that I hadn’t done anything about it, no savings, no job hunting, no looking at how much rent would be, or moving costs. It was at that point that they offered me the option of moving in with them. This instantly struck a chord with me as they live much closer to Auckland than Christchurch, and it was a safe house that I knew people in. On the bus home, I even checked into a few jobs available in the area and applied for one. I had planned to find a job, then move down.
I had many conversations with my boss regarding working remotely, which would allow me to move and still maintain my existing job, meaning that I could move sooner. I waited and waited, plus followed up as much as I could without feeling like I was becoming a bother, however, the answer was always that it was with IT, and no estimation on when this would be possible. It took a rather large break down and concerns from the BEST friends for me to stop waiting for an undetermined amount of time for something that might not even happen. They told me that they were going to come up for Armageddon, and take me back with them and that I could find a job when I was down here as it would be easier for me to go to interviews if I lived here.
So here I am, in a new city, far more relaxed that I can remember being in Auckland for a long time. I have been here for almost 2 weeks, still without a job. Having suffered with a large number of things in Auckland, I find that there are FAR fewer things here that cause me issues than I anticipated, and the major thing is only the lack of a job. I have applied for several jobs while here, and have an interview for one next Tuesday. The other jobs I have applied for haven’t been as fortunate, however, I wasn’t expecting to just come down and be able to waltz into a job straight away. What the interview means is that I have a lot of prep work to do, and have to remember to remain calm.
Building my life here is exciting, and something that I look forward to giving updates on. For now, I have more jobs to apply for, and interview prep to do! I will try to keep this up to date with my new life!!
See you soon,