It’s days like today that make you really step back and realise how much you take for granted the ‘boring plan Jane’ days. The days where things are smooth. The days where things are good. Days like today show you how strong you are and reiterate just how far you have come in your journey to happiness.
Today was a shit fight. Work was messy and INSANELY busy. People from the past show their heads. People who you value dearly do something stupid and end up in hospital.
Work: working in the telco industry is constantly busy. People are always getting connected, people are always moving, people are always cancelling, and faults always occur. Being someone who cares for other is difficult when you deal with an industry where 3/4 of the time there are issues. Whether is be a fault, or delays in the connection, these are things outside of our companies control. Then there are the human errors that happen that cause issues for customers, and those are the ones that hit the hardest. There was a VERY difficult situation I had to deal with today in relation to someone having fibre installed at their property and there being issues with the fact that the previous tenants fibre order hadn’t been cancelled by us, resulting in the connection being made on the wrong customers account along with the programming and provisioning being done on the wrong account. This is while fielding calls from 472929746382 other people who all have something that they require. On the positive side, I have a job interview in 3 days for another internal company that I used to work for a couple of years ago.
Past Faces: there are things that happen in your life for one reason or another that stop you from contacting people, or them contacting you. I had someone contact me today asking about my past in gymnastics and whether their child was too young, and how it woulda with their aged child, and where I would suggest they go in their city. Don’t get me wrong, I answered all their questions with honest answers, and promoted the fuck out gymnastics as I am a FIRM believer in the power of gymnastics for not only fun reasons, but the fundamental movements that it teaches that don’t seem to be discovered by children today with all their iPhones and tablets. I remember when I was a primary school and intermediate, we played outside on the field. We ran and played on the monkeybars, flipped upside down, jumped off the seesaws, and it seems kids today are doing less of that. ANYWAY. I am a bit triggered that I haven’t heard from them in a while and they they message me asking about gymnastics.
CURRENT PEOPLE: this ties to my last blog of You Can’t Save Everyone. There was someone I value dearly who went through a REALLY rough patch a few weeks ago and got to the point where we were seriously concerned about them hurting themselves. They lashed out and said some really nasty stuff to me about myself, but I understand that this was the headspace that they were in and totally not meant personally. Since then I messaged them at least once a day to check up and see what they are doing, and was ghosted (and still haven’t heard from them up to today) after a couple of weeks of messaging and getting the ‘seen’ treatment, I stopped messaged due to destruction of my heart. Today I was added back to a Facebook group I had left because said person had been messaging one of the other people in the group and ended up sending a VERY concerning message. After intense investigation we managed to establish that they had take a FUCKING SHIT LOAD of pills, and one of the persons other friends had found the person on their deck surrounded by pull bottles, blood, and vomit. We managed to get police and ambulance to the persons house and they are safely in hospital now. This DESTROYED me because I had spent a solid 2 weeks messaging and getting no response.
So today was an absolute out the gate, next level, shit fight from start to finish. This is where I came to the realisation that I need to appreciate every day. No matter house ‘ordinary’ it was, because those are the days that once appreciated, can be turned into extraordinary and eventually being great days.
With the amount of mess today, it’s only 8:53pm and I am already in bed. So I shall fall into a slumber now.